Thursday, March 22, 2007

Episode IV

Due to a recent convergence of events, most good, others less so but in the end good FOR me, I am finally at a point where I can, well, DO SOMETHING. YAY!

As many of you, my unfaithful readers, know, I've spent the last several years stuck here in Jersey tending to very necessary, if unsatisfying, responsibilities, basically putting on hold the whole "normal life" thing that a human of my age, skill set, and sexiness should be enjoying. Well, that's all settled now. Matters have been attended to to the point that I'm fiiinally back in a position to do, well, whatever the hell I want, wherever the hell I want. Opportunity and choices, and the power for it to affect a great deal. Londo would be jealous.

What to do, where to go? Well, I've decided to invest the time and opportunity in myself, and go back to school. Gonna stay local, finish up my business degree, and then MBA and/or law school. Yes, there's a lot of time involved. No, I'm not a youngster. Yes, it's worth it to me. I am so unsatisfied doing what I've been doing that this is the only logical step I can take in not being involved in the perpetual loop of dissatisfying career/general malaise bordering on unhappiness that I already see in some friends of mine.

This is all very very good. The past few years, I've been some sort of disaffected, disassociated shade of "me;" I've even found myself boring, and considering my healthy ego, that's a feat. Simple fact is, it's hard to be involved in anything around you when you don't really feel involved with your OWN life. Well, all that's done. I'm engaged in the world again, and it's a nice feeling. It's hard to talk to people sometimes when you have absolutely nothing to talk ABOUT. Well, no more passivity. There are plenty of people out there to whom a few big overdue "fuck you"'s are due, and they're coming, don't worry :D

All I'm needing right now is a new local crew. Most of my peeps around here either don't make quality time, suck, or some combo of the two. It's a bitch traveling for an hour plus to have a good time. I'm pretty shy and socially insecure, so making new friends is difficult... okay, maybe that's not entirely accurate. (Was it effective in eliciting sympathy? Gosh, I hope so!) Seriously though, I need people to watch ballgames with, as most of my peeps are total god damn nerds, which is fine, but sometimes ya just gotta de-nerd, get wasted, watch sports, and have meaningless sexin'. So if you know anyone in the NY area like that, (and HUGE bonus if she's an attractive female :D), send 'em my way.

That is my status, that is my plan. The plus side for you, faithless reader, is that I may have actual things on my brain that I'd like to blog about. The downside is that I'll hopefully be too involved in actual "things" to care to take time to blog. We'll all learn to live with the new paradigm. Sorry to all of you nuhds who were misled by the title here, but fictional intergalactic rebellions don't have a monopoly on the satisfaction discoverable in finding a new hope, do they?